I'm PISSED off. I'm missing someone, AND I'M CONFUSED.

Why? WHY! WHY ME??! why is it that whenever i've just gotten a tad bit of happiness, sorrow comes chasing me from behind just filling me up with every bit of insanity and depression?! WTF is going on with my life. It's like my life's been designed to live throughout depression. I'm sick and tired of all this. And i'm missing you, where have u been? Its like ur slipping through my fingers every single minute of the day. I seriously wanna find the reasons for me being down every single time happiness comes my way. Well, i guess i'm just not allowed to or fated to live a happy life for a very long period of time., If u're reading this, i wish u all the best in life. I'll be fine. For now, it's time for me to move on..

Why am I Happy? :p [BANG UR HEAD TO THIS TUNE IN UR RIDE!!]

Booyah. Check it, I'm happy. I am? Lolz. I AM!!

Hohoho. Anyway, i was scrooling through my song playlists and i happen to come across an oldddd olddddddd songgg, Aaron Carter Ft. Bahamen-Summertime.. and when i listened to this song, i just felt so damn happy. i seriously can't explain why though. hahaha. WEIRD.. anyway, as the saying goes, "MUSIC HeaLz ur SouL." :p

Anyway, lemme tell you a lil some-some about my day today.

First of all, kinda had to do a presentation for Public Speaking today. Got all dressed up and whatnot [Formal Yo. Haha]. I presented on the life of Shirley Temple and the drink that was made on her behalf.. Kinda did a lil demo in class, played the part of a Bartender for the day [Had music and all in my presentation; Neyo-Miss Independent, Akon Ft. Sweet Rush-Troublemaker].

(Formality? hahaha)

Lolz. After that, went for lunch wif Jess, then back to the hostel. [Snoozed till 2.45pm.] Muahahahaha...Later around 3pm, went for a group meeting [Jess, Ming, Victor and Valerie] to discuss our group presentation assignment for Public Speaking <<THE DREAM TEAM. ahahahahaa. jkjk. Well our topic this time will be pretty mind-boggilng, FOR SHIZZLE yo! Well lemme give u a sneak-peak on our topic, it's called "INSANITY".. or izzit?? -Raises Eyebrows- ahahaha

(Insane? You tell me. :p)

Later at night, went to SAYANG SALHAH to celebrate Chan's b'day.. Then here i am, typing away wif a smile on my face. It's not so much about the day i had, but i dunno, maybe this song i'm listening to just seems to be bringing me down memory lane.. :] Remembering all the good times i've had back home.. Kinda miss my Family and Friends. haih. But not to worry, my family's flying down to KL tomorrow night, and i'll be seeing them the following day, and it's just a matter of time before i'll be back in KK again where i'll be surrounded by familiar faces. :D

Later ppl... I'm seriously hyper now, so off i am to jump around and run around in circles.. lolz!!!

*BANG UR HEAD TO THIS TUNE IN UR RIDE!!

I’m a million different people from one day to the next.

Good Morning Malaysia. Good Morning SEGi University College. Good Morning Family. Good Morning Friends of mine. Good Morning readers out there.

Is it really morning? No it's not. It's actually 6.28pm in the evening. Well to me, it is my MORNING. I just woke up from an evening nap.

Here i am lying on my bed, been doing that for the last one hour. Weather's as perfect as ever, the room's even darker as ever, well not really that dark though. The least bit ray of sun shining through the blue curtains in my room is kinda giving my room this blue-ish oceanic effect to the room.

Look at urself in the mirror, what do u see? do u see urself? R u sure? Or is it just an image called REFLECTION? Wow, how deep can i get? VERY. trust me.

Today is like walking into a dream, a nightmare. People around me starring at me wif bloodshoot eyes, i keep telling myself, this can't be right.. Just then, i get zapped back into reality. Here i am in this pathetic cold world.. I don't belong here. Wait, WHERE IS HERE? i dunno. SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE IS "HERE"!!. Here's a place inside my head.. my FEAR has created it's own area code. and now i'm lost here without a compass to guide me out. Damn.. I feel all alone. and i need to get the hell out of here before i go insane. But wait, why am i even here? Maybe i've got a mission to complete. before i escape, i have to accomplish a certain objective.. But what can i do?? Well, maybe i'm here to test out the different characters in life that i can be and then choose one which i can adapt to for the rest of my life.

I don't belong here. I don't... But i've got to find myself.. So here i am, being A MILLION DIFFERENT PEOPLE FROM ONE DAY TO THE NEXT. Guess what, that made me think.. Now i know why HYPOCRITES even exist. It's coz they've never really escaped this place i'm in. FEAR. they keep potraying different kinds of characters without having to ever settle with just one... I don't blame them sometimes, but plz, before time runs out, be true to who u are.

A mirror may have two faces, but if u glance at the first image u see looking back at u in the mirror, that's who u really are. Not the other images that come about after u've imagined the image u see in the mirror wif other additional details on them simply through ur imagination.

I don't belong here. Still i keep saying that. Then boom~! I got back into reality. Somewhere people call THE REAL WORLD. What an extraordinary experience i've went through..

Now i'm standing here in a long pathway with nothing but empty picture frames hanging on the bare walls surrounding me all the way to the end where there lies a door that needs to be opened with a key... Now i know my objective.. I've got to paint my own photos and insert them in these empty picture frames till i reach the door one day where my destiny lies behind the secured locked door.. That's when i can escape this place, when the time is right. For now, i've got to go with what's written in the stars for me..

The World is a BiG PLayGrounD.

The World is a Big PlayGround??

It is? It sure is....

Welcome to reality guys and gals. The world is definitely a big playground for us to play in. Life, we're suppose to have fun living it. The falls we have from falling off the swing, those are the harsh side life has to offer, and the excitement and joy we gain from going down a slide and reaching a maximum velocity while swinging on the swing, Those are the heart-pumping-fun adrenaline side of life.

Everyone i know has a reason to say "YOU CAN PUT THE PAST AWAY". Yea just like that song "JUmper" By Third Eye Blind. Stop thinking about the past for it had pass, stop thinking about the future for it is yet to come, and start living the present people, for it is happening. People tend to surpass the present when it's actually ongoing.. Why? Maybe they're scared that their past will haunt them, maybe they're scared of how their actions in the present may haunt them in the future. Either way, we're wasting time.. SO IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE PEOPLE.

** Listen to this song while you continue reading:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qO7GieoeP3s <<< Hit on this link


[ Where's the Reset Button on Life? ]

( Isn't life wonderful? :] )

( Lil' Cousins :] )

( Bad Francis & Ralphie!! 2006 Camp Pengawas. ahahaha )

( Frank Douglas. 2007. haha! :p )

( Go crazy. Just close your eyes when u're sad and just JUMP! )

Get a fresh start on life. It's never too late. :] Be optimistic. Play hard in this crazy world we live in.. Run and just shout, trust me it's fun. Grab a coke, drink it, go to an open field and just jump, u'll feel a sudden rush of excitement. Trust me. :] I may sound crazy, but atleast it makes me happy. haha. I'm not high nor am i stoned, but some things in life are just not meant to be questioned. So go crazy, :] and falling in love, don't be afraid of falling in love. Being accidentally in love is in the stars, everyone experiences it. :] Gooo.. Go out and just have fun! trust me. u won't regret it. JUST MAKE SURE U DONT THINK TOO MUCH!! yea!!!

( My Bestfriend :] )

YES MAN!

Hohoho. Hello ppl. :]

So wanna know what i did yesterday? Well i did a spontaneous thing. Called Jess and Nizam up and went all "Let's catch a movie". Haha. Jess was like "What time?".. ANd i was like "What time u want?".. SO she said "Lol. ok 2pm".. then i went and say "OK make that 3pm".. ahahahahaha. So yea. We were set to go at 3pm. :]

Last Minute Change of plans,

Jess told me she couldn't join us because she has to hangout wif her old old friends or something. But she offered to give us a ride to One Utama [well it wasn't her driving ofcourse. it was her friend Nero]. :] When Nero picked us up, on the way to One Utama, She kinda hit a pot Hole. ahahahaha. And that's not the funny thing, the funny thing was, she looked to her left and went all "IT WAS JUSTTT THERE!!!!! THE SIDE MIRROR WAS JUST THERE!!!! CIB*I! where the hell did it go".. AHAHAHAHAHAAH. Her Left rear-view mirror actually fell off!! LOL! that sh*T was Classic. ahahaha.

Once me and Nizam arrived at OneU, i gave Cindy a call. She was with Michelle Tee and they were gonna join us for the Movie. Met them at some chinese restaurant and Nizam and I went and did our own shopping while the gals ate and met up with them again at 6pm for the movie was set to air at 6.40pm. Well Nizam bought a jacket and a shirt, i just bought a pair of sandals.

[YES MAN!!]



( I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend )

Yes Man was an awesome movie!! I mean seriously, it's been awhile since i've seen any great comedy films! hahaha. Well lemme just give those who've not seen the movie a lil Sneak-Peek.

About the Movie:

Carl Allen (Jim Carrey) is a divorced middle-aged man in LA who spends his days working as a junior loan approval officer in a bank, supervised by his immature manager Norman (Rhs Darby). Routinely declining social engagements so as to avoid meeting his ex-wife Stephanie (Molly Sims) with her new boyfriend, he has grown used to spending his evenings watching DVDs alone in his apartment while ignoring his friends' phone calls. Only complicating things is when he forgets the engagement party for his best friend, Peter (Bradley Cooper). Shortly thereafter, Carl comes across Nick (John Michael Higgins), an old co-worker who seems to have completely changed. Aware of Carl's personality, Nick persuades him that he needs to start living again and takes Carl to a motivational seminar called "Yes!" where Carl is publicly accosted by inspirational guru Terrence Bundley (Terence Stamp). Browbeaten into making a 'covenant' with himself, Carl promises to stop being a "No Man" and to answer "Yes!" to every opportunity, request, or invitation that presents itself thereafter.

Basically, it's a film where one has to just SAY "YES" in life. "NO" is never an option, or izzit? So yea, give YES MAN a chance, and u'll be experiencing an awesome comedic journey of a lifetime.

Nico Is Hanging Out iN The Lost & Found Box.

I will Be aRound..

Hey there people of the world.. Sorry i haven't been updating my blog for a VERYYYY LONG TIMEEEE!! haha. Just been so busy with Life and everything that's been happening around me. You know how it is. Anyway, it's 2009 now! A whole year's gone by. It kinda happened with a blink of an eye huh? No? Lol.

So what has happened in the last few months?? WELL what i can tell u is, ALOT.. I Got my heart broken, crushed, repaired and damaged all over again, I got pretty cool stuff for x'mas, It was great to be back in the safety of my family and friends [Yes, familiar faces], I got to know alot of new ppl, well they may not be sooo NEW, but it's the first time i've actually really interacted with them. Well all in all, 2008 has been a great year... Though i had my ups and downs, that's Life right. Appreciated every experience i went through.

College, How was College treating me these last few months? Let's see.. I was really busy with my assignments, tryna catch up, tryna make em' perfect, well basically just tryna get em' done. Been away A LOT from my college friends during my last term. Why? I dunno. Maybe i just needed the space and time to reflect on some things. I know ppl say that college is the best time of our lives, but so far, i've only experienced a small portion of it. Maybe it's still too early to say, maybe the best part is yet to come, but yea, still they're all MAYBEs.. But not to worry, i'm working on it, Tryna look at things in a more optimistic way, Tryna catch up on things, but lately, everyone seems so far away, it's like the distance from earth to mars, Know what i'm sayin'? Everyone seems to be busy with their own life.. then again, things are slowly getting back to normal, met some close college friends and started hanging out with them like old times.

[I'M SICK OF WASTING ALL MY TIME]

I've been thinking lately, We only live life once right? Well yea. It's pretty obvious actually. So why am i here wasting time on things i can do when i settle down next time far into the future when i can do a lot more now? Why won't i just try to live everyday as if it was my last? Am i scared of moving forward at a fast phase that i'm actually afraid i won't be able to slow down one day? QUESTIONS.. they're all questions lingering on my mind. Maybe i should't think too much. Been telling people that, maybe i should keep it real. Yea, I guess.

2009 Resolution:

-To be the Nico Jericho Januz Kilroy Augustin I once was.

[I will find myself, i just gotta look closer in the Lost & Found Box]

A story to tell.

Hey there guys. Sorry i haven't been updating my blog for so long, its just that i've been so Busy wif College Hunting and whatnot. Kinda went to Kuching a week ago, was suppose to enroll at SEGi College Kuching, Sarawak, but when i got there, i had complications wif the accomodation and my parents didn't approve of me staying there saying that it ain't a healthy environment for a student to be in, i dont mean Kuching itself, just the private Accomodation. So yea, flew back to Sabah the very next day, and A week after that, Flew to KL on the 19th of august, and yeap, i'm officially a student at SEGi University College, Kota Damansara. ahahahaha. what i can tell u about my College Campus is that, IT'S HUGE!! Freaking Huge, and damn nice too, it's based on Roman Architecture. :p heh. There's a swimming pool, with a big clock tower ontop, 3 Cafes, a student lounge wif pool facilities, and yea, the Hostel entrance even has thumb/fingerprint security service. sweet ei. ahahahaha. I'll only be havin my orientation this coming Monday [25th August 2008], Hope to make loads of friends Seein i'm a freakin stranger here. Neway, I have a roomate! ahahahaa. seeing they dont have single rooms for the in campus accomodation, i figured i'd try it out for once. yeap. we'll see how it goes. I'll upload the photos when i'm free aight. Do take care y'all. Chow. Later~~