My WishList.

Hohoho, i know it's not christmas, but it's never too early to wanna write Santa a WishList now is it? :p

Well Here it is:

1) An awesome future
2) To own my own CLUB one day
3) To drive a Fairlady around KK City [Fairlady the car ahhhh, NOT A FAIR LADYYY]. ahahaha
4) A hummer to impress my fellow Malaysians
5) To have A dog named BLUE.. ahahahaha
6) To sing "MY BOO" to my hot sexy, nerdy, irritating, long haired future gf.. AHAHAHA.
7) To SUPERMAN That HOE.. "Youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!". AHAHAHAHA
8) To have my own crash pad for maximum privacy.. :p
9) To own something big and popular [Dont cross the yellow line u perverted ppl.. ahaha]
10) To win a hundred million bucks for maximum happiness..
11) To travel around the world
12) To own a mansion filled with entertainment apparatus. AHAHAHAHAA... uiseh, nice words
13) A Jet and a Boeing 747 pimped out by WEST COAST Customs to perfection
14) A bestfriend called Armstrong.. [RANDOM yo. ahahaha]
15) To bring sexy back. :p
16) Pop Bottles all night
17) Eat ice at the North Pole
18) To Shuffle on the Great Wall of China
19) To own new phones every single time a nice one comes out.
20) Wish that MY WHOLE FAMILY would always be happy for LIFE. :]

:] Oh santa, plz make my dreams come true.. AHAHAHAHA

Confessions of a Teenage Boy.

Tick# Tick# Tick# The Clock keeps ticking. One glance at the calender, time flies in a very fast pace.. It only takes us a second to realize our life's going forward at the speed of light. Wow, it's my final year of being a teen. Didn't realize it till Donella mentioned it. Damn. Now i feel old. Yesterday led me to thinking alot, and theres just so much that's been goin through ma mind. Who am i? Am i really acting as myself? I dunno anymore, i'm starting to doubt my myself. Haihz.

(It's simple but I can't explain it. Is it really another perfect day?)

Well i'm sick of having to defend myself.. Here's a confession from me, I AM WHO I AM.. and i'm proud of it. :] I dont care what people say, i do what i want, when i want, and BECAUSE I WANT TO. haha. Well here's my confessions:

-I'm Nico Jericho Januz Kilroy Augustin, i'm serious. :]
-I play the guitar although every chord and melody i play seems to summon the rain to fall, i
dont care, it makes me happy.
-I like to philosophize famous quotes and act as if i'm making sense infront of people, although it
makes me look stupid sometimes, i dont mind :]
-I rhyme and come up with weird poems alot because i think its cool
-I talk to people i like and ignore people who are annoying. haha
-I like to take evening naps because it keeps me from being cranky at night. :p
-I dont eat rice at night, well its a new found "hobby" of mine. ahahaahhaa.
-I'm mix genre, so i appreciate different genres of music, emo, rap, soul, pop, u name it.
-I dont like Hello Kitty, that cat's just creepy
-I think Spongebob rocks and Patrick don't :p but i'll give props to Patrick anyway, he's a good
friend.
-If i were to turn to Nickelodeon and Rugrats just happen to be on, i'd watch it, i'm not even
lying. :D i love the rugrats, that show just have this nostalgic feeling to it.
-I like my chicken, fried, and crispy. :]
-My family's the one team i'll always audition for. :]
-If i had a hundred million bucks, My life would be set for life.
-I went to form six for 3 weeks to buy time before i entered college. haha iN short, 2 have fun.
-Life's ok, abit stressful, but OK.
-I like to Sing even if i cant.. :p
-I still like Chris Brown's "With You" and all his other songs though he beat the sh*t out of
Rihanna. ahahaha
-Sometimes i pretend i'm in my own world where i can impress people with my dancing, pathetic
huh..
-I miss Home
-I Can't wait for semester breaks, coz that's when i'll fly back home.
-I believe BAHAMEN let the dogs out

and Last But Not LEAST, my ambition in life is to EXPERIENCE A MIRACLE. :]

Better things are coming my way.

Time : 5.30am

Am i crazy to be awake at this hour? :] not really, lately better things are coming my way. I dunno where i went right, but i'm loving every bit of it. :]

(Take a good look around)


(Better things are coming my way each & every single day)

Yes sometimes life stresses can bring u down, but u gotta get up and take a better look around. :] Just gotta keep on moving kinda like that song KEEP ON MOVIN' by 5ive. haha. "Keep Moving, dont stop rocking"..

When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying (ahh ahh ahh)
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
Keep on movin' don't stop rockin' (ahh ahh ahh)

Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a good look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
Keep on moving anyway

So whats new? U really wanna know? Ok here goes, *Slaps a whole week experience in one post* :p

FRIDAY, got to know an exciting gal who goes by the name of Carmelia. Its a wonder how i could have had her msn email and not once chatted wif her. lolz. About this gal? i've got alot more of "getting to know her" sessions b4 i can really tell u about u, as a heads-up, she's a pretty cool gal 2 chat wif. :]

SATURDAY, Najib, Mohammad, Nizam and myself went to Bukit Bintang to meet Mohammad Ali's Dad whose transittin here from Yahmen. Treated us to Arabic food. OMG, the dude kept ordering food for us as if we havent eaten in days. *Dramatic face* haha! But it was aight, we survived the whole TOO MUCH FOOD madness wif bloated tummies.. ahaha.. met Roy after that... Nizam and I went for a haircut..went back around 11pm, the taxi driver took us round in circles, me and the guys kinda made him feel guilty [we pretended we kept getting msgs and calls saying that someone's waiting for us].. dirty trick guys. ahahaha

SUNDAY, The day i RESTED! ahaha.

MONDAY, the day I STUDIED!.. Public Speaking finals the next day guys..

TUESDAY, had the Public Speaking finals..Then at night, studied to the max at the Lobby wif Roy for Tuesday's Algebra paper.. we actually stayed there till 7.30am.. I know right. WOW? ahahaha

WEDNESDAY, Yes, the day of the exam.. Everyone looked stressed out, well its Algebra, anything wif numb3rs is a burden... ASS' more like it. haha. jk. :p AFTER THE EXAMS, we drove allll the way to TELOK GONG to have seafood [The trip took about an hour's drive].. Man was the food great. AWESOME... After that, we drove all the way to Ming's house.. had soft drinks there.. Then the guys decided to hit the Cyber Cafe while the girls went and watch a movie. :] WE SPENT 5 HOURS at the CYBER cafe!! wth.. we didnt even feel it.. Oh yea, kinda met Chee Fui Vun there by accident.. coincidence huh, then i met up wif Lee Wee Chi too!! well cant blame it all on fate, KDU's hostel just seemed to be around the corner. lolz... Then after that, went for supper at Some Mamak stall around the zoo area which took us another 45 minutes drive.. Alot of driving huh, i know right. :] Too detailed.. So got back to the college around 5am. ahahaha. Now that's late. :]

THURSDAY, went to One Utama with Najib to get his ipod. Annoyed him by entering Toys "R" Us and roamed that place for almost 20minutes just lookin at toys. :p i used to love this place when i was younger, its just so, MAGICAL!! seriously. :D Then at night, had a very interesting conversation with Carmelia.. She's a very tough debater. :] Weird in a good way.. So yea, i guess that sum's up my week.

Ladies and gentlemen, GO TO SLEEP! haha. ok night. :] I'm gonna crash in bed now. ps: Shit happens, but life goes on.. So whenever ur feeling great, go all out, u might not experence it again anytime soon. hahaha. jk. :p

Mad.

(Whose that person looking back at me in the mirror?)

Ne Yo-MAD.. Can't seem to get this song out of my head. Why? I dunno. Maybe its just so freakin awesome. Then again, maybe it just has some sorta effect on me. Lemme tell u about my day, it was MESSED UP. really2 messed up. Lately i've been having so much on my mind.. So much to think about.. It's like there's this whole burden over my shoulder.. Can't wait for my 2 weeks break in May.. Sighs, I guess i'll just have to hang in here, coz every activity in life now just seemz to exist to stress me out. Whatever it is, i'm still breathing aren't i.

I'm PISSED off. I'm missing someone, AND I'M CONFUSED.

Why? WHY! WHY ME??! why is it that whenever i've just gotten a tad bit of happiness, sorrow comes chasing me from behind just filling me up with every bit of insanity and depression?! WTF is going on with my life. It's like my life's been designed to live throughout depression. I'm sick and tired of all this. And i'm missing you, where have u been? Its like ur slipping through my fingers every single minute of the day. I seriously wanna find the reasons for me being down every single time happiness comes my way. Well, i guess i'm just not allowed to or fated to live a happy life for a very long period of time., If u're reading this, i wish u all the best in life. I'll be fine. For now, it's time for me to move on..

Why am I Happy? :p [BANG UR HEAD TO THIS TUNE IN UR RIDE!!]

Booyah. Check it, I'm happy. I am? Lolz. I AM!!

Hohoho. Anyway, i was scrooling through my song playlists and i happen to come across an oldddd olddddddd songgg, Aaron Carter Ft. Bahamen-Summertime.. and when i listened to this song, i just felt so damn happy. i seriously can't explain why though. hahaha. WEIRD.. anyway, as the saying goes, "MUSIC HeaLz ur SouL." :p

Anyway, lemme tell you a lil some-some about my day today.

First of all, kinda had to do a presentation for Public Speaking today. Got all dressed up and whatnot [Formal Yo. Haha]. I presented on the life of Shirley Temple and the drink that was made on her behalf.. Kinda did a lil demo in class, played the part of a Bartender for the day [Had music and all in my presentation; Neyo-Miss Independent, Akon Ft. Sweet Rush-Troublemaker].

(Formality? hahaha)

Lolz. After that, went for lunch wif Jess, then back to the hostel. [Snoozed till 2.45pm.] Muahahahaha...Later around 3pm, went for a group meeting [Jess, Ming, Victor and Valerie] to discuss our group presentation assignment for Public Speaking <<THE DREAM TEAM. ahahahahaa. jkjk. Well our topic this time will be pretty mind-boggilng, FOR SHIZZLE yo! Well lemme give u a sneak-peak on our topic, it's called "INSANITY".. or izzit?? -Raises Eyebrows- ahahaha

(Insane? You tell me. :p)

Later at night, went to SAYANG SALHAH to celebrate Chan's b'day.. Then here i am, typing away wif a smile on my face. It's not so much about the day i had, but i dunno, maybe this song i'm listening to just seems to be bringing me down memory lane.. :] Remembering all the good times i've had back home.. Kinda miss my Family and Friends. haih. But not to worry, my family's flying down to KL tomorrow night, and i'll be seeing them the following day, and it's just a matter of time before i'll be back in KK again where i'll be surrounded by familiar faces. :D

Later ppl... I'm seriously hyper now, so off i am to jump around and run around in circles.. lolz!!!

*BANG UR HEAD TO THIS TUNE IN UR RIDE!!

I’m a million different people from one day to the next.

Good Morning Malaysia. Good Morning SEGi University College. Good Morning Family. Good Morning Friends of mine. Good Morning readers out there.

Is it really morning? No it's not. It's actually 6.28pm in the evening. Well to me, it is my MORNING. I just woke up from an evening nap.

Here i am lying on my bed, been doing that for the last one hour. Weather's as perfect as ever, the room's even darker as ever, well not really that dark though. The least bit ray of sun shining through the blue curtains in my room is kinda giving my room this blue-ish oceanic effect to the room.

Look at urself in the mirror, what do u see? do u see urself? R u sure? Or is it just an image called REFLECTION? Wow, how deep can i get? VERY. trust me.

Today is like walking into a dream, a nightmare. People around me starring at me wif bloodshoot eyes, i keep telling myself, this can't be right.. Just then, i get zapped back into reality. Here i am in this pathetic cold world.. I don't belong here. Wait, WHERE IS HERE? i dunno. SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE IS "HERE"!!. Here's a place inside my head.. my FEAR has created it's own area code. and now i'm lost here without a compass to guide me out. Damn.. I feel all alone. and i need to get the hell out of here before i go insane. But wait, why am i even here? Maybe i've got a mission to complete. before i escape, i have to accomplish a certain objective.. But what can i do?? Well, maybe i'm here to test out the different characters in life that i can be and then choose one which i can adapt to for the rest of my life.

I don't belong here. I don't... But i've got to find myself.. So here i am, being A MILLION DIFFERENT PEOPLE FROM ONE DAY TO THE NEXT. Guess what, that made me think.. Now i know why HYPOCRITES even exist. It's coz they've never really escaped this place i'm in. FEAR. they keep potraying different kinds of characters without having to ever settle with just one... I don't blame them sometimes, but plz, before time runs out, be true to who u are.

A mirror may have two faces, but if u glance at the first image u see looking back at u in the mirror, that's who u really are. Not the other images that come about after u've imagined the image u see in the mirror wif other additional details on them simply through ur imagination.

I don't belong here. Still i keep saying that. Then boom~! I got back into reality. Somewhere people call THE REAL WORLD. What an extraordinary experience i've went through..

Now i'm standing here in a long pathway with nothing but empty picture frames hanging on the bare walls surrounding me all the way to the end where there lies a door that needs to be opened with a key... Now i know my objective.. I've got to paint my own photos and insert them in these empty picture frames till i reach the door one day where my destiny lies behind the secured locked door.. That's when i can escape this place, when the time is right. For now, i've got to go with what's written in the stars for me..