Saturday, July 4, 2009


How long has it been? To tell u the truth, i dunno why i even stopped blogging, been busy? been tryna catch up on lost sleep? Been having fun? Man i'm sick of my own excuses.. So ok whats been going on wif my life. Wow, where do i start? Ok one, i Got back to college looking all cheerful [Yeap, thats what holidays do to me, they REFRESH ME], Two, I got to know alot of new people, which one of em even managed to amaze me [I'm not shitting u., seriously], Three, I've been busy with the House oF Fayette [H.O.F], selling the tshirts/planning the pool party and whatnot, Four, I've been having less and lessss and LESSSSS sleep lately.. Insomnia? Yea go and sing Craig David's version of insomnia, it'll give u an idea of what i've been goin trhough.. Anyway, i've been thinking,.. Its been a year now since i've step foot and settle down here at SEGi University College and that's when it HIT ME! Time Flies soooo freaking fast.. Cant wait to go home though for holidays.. anywho, i met someone.. someone weird.. someone pretty awkward, someone pretty interesting, someone very unpredictable, someone cute, someone dorky, but theres just one thing, I dont know if she's real.. Well she looks real, but i'm yet to find out what lies beneath her.. or maybe i should distance myself this time, coz reality can be an ass at times. no? I dunno. So whatever it is, Strangers keep filling my space and all i can do is gasp for air, hopefully one of those strangers can be my source of oxygen. Whatever it is, I'm tired of searching, so the only thing for me to do now is to sit, let LIFE take its course and whatever happens, happens. :] BYE

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Yea whatever.

1. last beverage= water
2. last phone call= lia
3. last text message= lia
4. last song you listened to= Maino Ft. T-Pain-All The Above
5. last time you cried= Big boys don't cry.

6. dated someone twice= Hell yea.
7. been cheated on= I dunno oh. ahahaha
8. kissed someone & regretted it= Nah.. :p
9. lost someone special= alot.
10. been depressed= Can't recall.. so far i've been aight.
11. been drunk and threw up= lolz.

12. Black
13. White
14. Neon Green

15. Made a new friend = Lots! too many to name.
16. Fallen out of love= hahaha. Love is overrated.
17. Laughed until you cried= HELL YEA!!
18. Met someone who changed you= I did.. seriously. :]
19. Found out who your true friends were= Somewhere in between.
20. Found out someone was talking about you= Yes.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list= Yes.

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life= Just about most of em'.
23. How many kids do you want to have= 4?
24. Do you have any pets= A Siamese cat..
25. Do you want to change your name= I love my name.. ahahaha
26. What did you do for your last birthday= went out wif friends, dad flew to kl, went out..
27. What time did you wake up today = 10am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Was having fun.. ahahaha. BED yo...
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for= Shss.. its yet to come, dont jinx it. :p
30. Last time you saw your Mother= a minute ago.
31. What is the one thing you wish you could change about your life? = So far nothing.
32. What are you listening to right now = Akon Ft. Sweet Rush-TroubleMaker
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom= Yes. Sutera
34. What's getting on your nerves right now= One person.
35. Most visited webpage= FACEBOOK i guess.. hahaha
36. Whats your real name = Draco Malfoy.
37. Nicknames= Nicky/Nick
38. Relationship Status = No comment and ready for comments.. AHAHAHAHAA!!
39. Zodiac sign = Tarus babeh.
40. Male or female? = The last i checked in ma pants, i had a 5-head dragon trap in there. ahaha
41. Elementary? = Stella Maris
42. Middle School = La Salle
43. High school/College = SEGi University College.
44. Hair colour = Dark Brown.
45. Long or short = Now, pretty short i guess.
46. Height = Short. ==
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = HAHAHAHA.
48: What do you like about yourself? = That i can't tell u. :p
49. Piercings= One, left ear.. Bling2 babeh..
50. Tattoos = I wish... ONE DAYYYY.. oneeee dayyy...
51. Righty or lefty= RIGHTY for sure.

52. First surgery = 1998 i think.
53. First piercing= 2005
54. First best friend= I think his name was Firdaus.. its been awhile.
55. First sport you joined = Football.
56. First vacation= Can't remember. Was seriously young back then..KL perhaps? dunno lah.
58. First pair of trainers = hmmm..

59. Eating = Been awhile.
60. Drinking = Nothing.
61. I'm about to = Hit da sack and call it a night.
62. Listening to = Akon.
63. Waiting on = A miracle to happen.

64. Want kids? I don't mind.
65. Get Married? Sure.
66. Career? MEDIA/BROADCASTING: Event Manager/Production Manager

67. Lips or eyes= I look at both yo! ahahahaha
68. Hugs or kisses= Kisses are hot..
69. Shorter or taller= Shorter ofcourse..
70. Older or Younger = OLDER! ahahahaha!!
71. Romantic or spontaneous = spontaneous.. just go crazy girl!! :p
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = I gotta have both man, i can't lie.. ahahaha
73. Sensitive or loud = More to loud less on the sensative, loud but sexy ya. :p rawr
74. Hook-up or relationship = For now, Hook-ups...
75. Trouble maker or hesitant= Trouble Maker.. Naughty gals turn me on! :p

76. Kissed a stranger = Yea..
77. Drank hard liquor= Hahahaha.. sounds like last night yo? :p
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Glasses.
79. Sex on first date= AHAHAHAHAAH.. :DD
80. Broken someone's heart = Yea, didnt mean to though.
81. Had your own heart broken = Yes.. It was hell.
82. Been arrested = NEVER and i hope it stays that way.
83. Turned someone down = Yeap. Sorry.
84. Cried when someone died = yea..
85. Fallen for a friend? = Seriously? Ok yes. ahahaha

86. Yourself = Every now and then..
87. Miracles= Miracles happen.. But i've yet to experience one..
88. Love at first sight?= Well i love the sound of it.. AHAHAHAHAA!!
89. Heaven= Yes..
90. Santa Claus = If he gives me money.
91. Kiss on the first date= Whynot.. If she's my type that is.. and i'm feelin her..hahaha
92. Angels= Spread em wing my pretty angelssss.. ahahaha

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time= Nope..
95. Did you sing today? = This morning in d car.. ahahaha
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = I dont think so..
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?= way back to make my life better :P
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = So many 2 choose from....
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?= Nope.. Love is a risk... play d game man..Take chances..
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = NOOO.. "YEA WHATEVER"

Friday, April 17, 2009

The Rise of Nico Jericho Januz Kilroy Augustin.

Fighter.. Fighter.. Fighter..!!!

Someone's been chanting that in my sleep. Who??!! ME!!! :] I can picture myself wearing those army pants and having this deadly killer look on my face. Two black lines crossed across my face and the expression of an enthusiastic SOLDIER ready for battle..Rawr.. ahahaha. Man i am a fighter, it may not look like i am from the outside, but this thing inside me called "FIRE" keeps burning my soul just making it Glow even brighter than before, kinda like the roasting process in cooking, ROASTING the hell out of a BBQ Chicken. Lolz. What am i destined to be? A warrior? i don't know whether i can call myself a warrior, but i am a SURVIVOR for sure.. I have survived this harsh world for so long now, and now, it's the rise of ME!!

(See the look in my eyes, I'm a soldier, I'm a miracle)

I invision myself rising from the ground, as dramatic as it may seem, i dont really care anymore, words describe an action, THIS IS MINE, MY SET OF WORDS... i've got this thing called PASSION FOR LIFE instilled deep within me.. I am a changed person.. I went through all the pain and bullshit to finally realize WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU, ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER.. it just goes to show that when the body suffers, the spirit flowers..

I went through a lot.. Unfortunate fates, miserable endings, wretched circumstances, but now, I'M GOing through a METAMORPHOSIS age, A MAJESTIC BEGINNING, A Rise, This part of me unfolds.. How? Why? Blame Fate, Blame SHit.. Blame Misery, BLAME EVERYTHING.. If the world was perfect, then i'm destined for greatness, seeing it isn't, i gotta IMPROVISE.. I am a soldier! Hear that sound?!! That loud bang, That loud thump??~~.. Yea, That's the sound of my HEARTBEAT marching to the sound and rhythm of RESSURECTION.. A GRanD ReNewaL!

Take what's yours and own it.. Slap fear in the face and grab it by the neck and show it that fist of yours.. Threaten it, iNTimidate it, Burn It, KILL it, step on it.. Nothing can stop you if you put your mind to it.. This life was designed for misery to slip in, but if you take the right steps and precaution to seal the door for desolation to come busting in, then you're set for life.. PICTURE TOMORROW, picture your dreams coming true, WHEN YOU CAN'T, invision OPTIMISM, and i can assure you it'll be the GPS System that guides and steers you to your DREAMS..


The chants coming from my PAST.. The chants coming from my FUTURE, THE CHANTS meeting up in the middle, MY PRESENT...

The pain and struggles are nothing but scratch marks and scars on me now.. It's a tattoo that symbolizes the reason for my REVIVAL.. Look me in the eyes, no matter how much you try to scare me off from living my life, I WILL SURIVE.. I'll bleed to surive, I'll take chances, I'll take a shot, a bullet, a beating, i'll go through a fire for what it's worth only to rise again, NOTHING'S gonna be the barricade that suroounds this newly found zest of mine.. Shoot me with bullets, I'll be spittin em bullets wif words.. See the look in my eyes, I WILL SURVIVE THIS WORLD..

I've been to the bottom, i've suffered enough. Thank you for making me suffer, thank you for taking everything away from me, thank you for all the crap, thank you for all the stepping, thank you for the pain! NOW WATCH ME COMEBACK!! Now watch this new side of me!


"It's easy to hate, It's harder to love me Ya'll don't understand, Ya'll quickly to judge me Put your foot in my Nikes, Picture you livin' my life, Picture you stuck in a cell, Picture you wasting your life, Picture you facing a charge, Picture you beating the odds, Picture you willing to bleed, Picture you wearing the scar Thank you for making me struggle, Thank you for making me grind I perfected my hustle, Tell me the world ain't mine You've been seein' me lately, I'm a miracle baby I refuse to lose "

-yESterday was just a synopsis of what today really is-
Nico Jericho Januz Kilroy Augustin

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Counting the days that pass me by.

As i start to close my eyes, i see nothing but blurry images of myself. I find that i have somehow gotten myself stuck in here, somewhere i really don't belong. As i take a second to catch my breath, i hear voices all around me, moving from one direction to the next, kinda like the buzzing sound of an annoying mosquito. When i turn to see where it's coming from, i see nothing, better yet, I SEE NO ONE.. Is this is a dream? I can't be asking myself this question if it really was a dream i was in, now can i? But then again, there is such a thing as "a dream in a dream".. Either way, this is a very uncomfortable situation i am in. I fell lost, blue, down and most of all, worn out.. The words i'm hearing are starting to get old, and all i need is an answer. I can't remember how i end up here.

(Death, you don't plan it)

Before u know it, the clock strikes 8PM, there i am, wide awake to the sound of my handphone alarm going "Kringgg".. As i turn to press the stop button on it, i realize Nokia has zapped me back into reality. Was it a dream i was in? It sure as hell didnt feel like one, a NIGHTMARE's more like it.

Man i'm really stressed here, college life is fun.. But u have ur bad days, annoying people around u, the shit loads of assignment trailing u like a ghost whose yearning for revenge, "fakes" all around me, exams around the corner.. Well practically everything. I dunno why, but it always feels like when one bad thing comes ur way, a whole OTHER BUNCH of shit comes chasing you too.

I wish i could pause this life and change the path of some things, of how events are gonna turn out so that i dont have to suffer this crisis every now and then. Coz right now, it feels like i'm just standing in the middle of the street where all my problems are passing me like speeding cars and at the same time, the cars slows down in a matrix kinda way to make u realize what they are, and then speeds up again. Why am i feeling this way? I wish i knew.. I seriously do.

So what am i doing about it? Theres nothing i can do.. Maybe i need a break. Maybe i miss home. Well maybe's not a speculation anymore, I DO MISS HOME. i can't wait to go back.. Home's the only place i feel secure, it offers me this sense of BELONGING. People say time flies, yes it happens sometimes, but now, when ur really anticipating something, like me, anticipating the day i'll be back home, TIME slows down in such a way that a single minute feels like an hour and days feel like months.. Man everything's so undefined. When can i truly find happiness in life? I'm starting to doubt the existence of it..

There's obviously nothing else i can do.. All i can do is to wait for the days to pass till i get home and maybe gain a lil bit' of my old-self back again, even if its for a split second, because to change this shitty feeling i'm in, I'D DO ANYTHING. For now, i just hope i can stay alive.. Hopefully i won't die before i get to see the better side of life.. Emotional much? Nah, i think life is EMOTIONAL, being so complicated and twisted.

Monday, April 6, 2009

We'll bring life into my deepest hopes. What's ur fantasy?

"Once upon a time" never left the hearts of many.. I know a lot of you out there still believe in fairytales, girls wishing that one day their Prince Charming would come and RESCUE them, Guys waiting for their beautiful Princess to take control over their destiny.. Well, everyone has a story to tell. Check this one out.

(I believe in fairytales)


(I recognize the way you make me feel, It's hard to think you might not be real)

(When I catch my breath, it's you i breathe)

(When I touch your hand, it's then I understand the beauty that's within, it's now that we begin)

Once upon a time, there lived a Prince, This makes it CHAPTER ONE:

Once upon a time, LONG long time ago,
there was a prince, a prince who liked to show.
He'd show off his shoes, and show off his clothes,
he'd show off his face, and even his nose.
He'd show off his gold, and count them one and two,
hundreds by millions, right in front of you.
One day a small child came, Emilly was her name
and asked the prince for a favor.
He said. "No I'm not that kind of prince to do that kind of labor.
"The Emilly walked away, from the path now crying."
Then the next day, a woman came, and stated she was dying.
She was old and hard to hear, but this is what she said, this is what she feared.(In an old women’s voice.)
"I fear my time has come at last, please help my family before I pass."
"Make sure they have what it is they need,
please give them this letter, give it for me."
"The prince just laughed. "I don’t' think you know who I am."
" I'm the prince you understand."
"I don't run errands for peasants like you."
"You've got to be kidding ... That I just won' t do."
Someone ran by and took the women by the hand,
as they walked around from the mean ole' prince, who just didn't understand.
The next morning a new, a knock at his highness door.
Very early in the morn', it was almost 4.
He ranted and raved, "How dare you." he burned.
But before another word. a Fox, he had turned.
The guards ran in, To find a Fox.
"Raharraharrahar" "sneeze" says the fox. And they threw him out, in a box.
The box was carried to the woods, where he was released, like a fox should.
He rented and raved. "Take me back, I demand it”
but no one understood, not one, understands it.
So he sits down alone, lost, and unfound.
Wouldn't anyone worry about their prince, uncrowned?
Darkness came, he wondered here and there,
the rain poured down, soaking everywhere.
He found a tree, where he finally took shelter.
"They'll find me they have to, I'm the crown prince of Belter."
(Next morning he woke to find a blue jay, looking at him.)
She says. "Your the prince that caused all the trouble,
now look at you, your in a fix of a bubble."
"How dare you speak to me in that tone." The prince said.
(The blue jay plops down in from of him, wings on her hips.)
"Who do you think you are, Mr. Fox without a home?"
"You were never nice, you never helped a soul."
"What makes you so special now,(shaking her winged feathered finger at him)
just a fox in a foxhole."
He took a min to think what it seems.
A fox he thought. "So it wasn't a dream."
The Blue jay she says, "There's only one way to become human once more."
"Learn kindness and love, then teach what the meaning is for."
The Fox got to his feet, "But how do I?" before another word she flies,
With only this to answer, it's all he really had.
"This is so stupid he said, and this is sooo bad."

Chapter Two. Along Came The Girl:

As he walked alone in the woods, he found himself not as he should.
Long days and nights, went by, never knowing how or why.
One day as he was sitting in the sun, he saw a little girl on the run.
It was the same girl that had asked for help,
“Oh boy.” Said the fox prince in a disgusted tone. “What more can be dealt?”
The little girl stopped, and set by the stream.
Opened her book and started to read.
The fox moved in closer, to get a better look,
and then he too started reading the book.
The girl glanced over, to see the prince.
“What is this?” she says. “Are you reading this?”
The fox looks up at her, and Shakes his head saying yes.
She looks at him bewildered. “Is this some kind of test?”
“You look so lost, don’t you have a home?”
The fox shakes his head and says “No.”
“What is this?” she says. “You can talk?”
“You must tell me everything, what its like to be a fox?”
But when he tried to answer her, nothing seemed to come.
No speech or words or anything, just a great big GRUMP.
“Well you must be in some kind of trouble not being able to say what it is.”
“Maybe I can help you, I can be your friend.”
The prince didn’t know what to think, a friend he thought, how quant.
I never had a friend before; I wonder what she’s got in store?
He says “Why sure, why not, how quant, what a thought.”
“Okay it’s settled.” she says, “Time to come home, before mum goes to bed.”

Chapter Three. Friendship and love? You figure it out:

So they spent their mornings playing by the pond,
reading books and building up a bond.
One day he thought, this isn’t so bad, I feel much happier and much more glad.
I treated her wrong, and misunderstood,
they work so hard for the little they should.
When I become prince once more I think, I might just change what I didn’t make.
The prince and the girl, became close, they seemed a pair at the very most.
One day the girl set out alone, into the woods a part not shown.
The fox looked and looked she was nowhere to be found
so he set out on foot, onto the ground.
He followed her scent, with his nose to the spot.
Going this way and that, no he never did stop.
He called out to her, “Are you here?” “Are you there?”
“Please tell me are you anywhere?”
He finally found a piece of her shawl, and then he really started to call.
“Emily!!!” he yelled. Searching everywhere
and low and behold he found her lying there.
“Oh please be okay,” said the fox prince.
And tears started rolling, “Has it really come to this?”
"I don’t want to be human, I don't want to go home,
just save her life, I love her you know.
He licked her cheeks and prayed to die. Please take me, not her, take my life.
And with a soft glow, that formed around them.
He turned back into the prince, the one he had once been.
He held her in his arms, as he bent to his knees.
He kissed her lips, and said, “Oh please.”
She woke with a start, and knew it was him,
the fox that he was, the prince he now is.
He carried her back to his castle on high.
They got married and lived, under a peaceful sky.
From that forth he taught everyone to be nice.
He showed his kingdom, just how to be kind.
He taught love and faith, truth and trust.
And they lived happily ever after, with not a single fuss.

Sunday, April 5, 2009


What am i gonna talk about today? Hmm let's see, My day wasn't all that interesting, except for the fact that my fav football club MANCHESTER UNITED had a 3-2 win against Aston Villa.. [It was an awesome win.. They were down 1-2 and managed to climb all the way up to a 3-2 finish in the last few remaining minutes].. Well all in all, Ronaldo scored 2 awesome goals, one from a freeKICK-position and another by an inch away from the post, and the third goal was scored by a freshman. Not bad, NOT BAD AT ALL.. Not to rub it in to all u non-MANU Supportors, but yea GLORY GLORY ManUNITED!!!! ahahaha..

[Glory, Glory ManUNITED!!]

[The man that makes wonders and miracles happen, not forgetting GETTING THE JOB DONE!!]

[I'm one of the REDS, though i don't wear RED Shirts that often, But yea, Nike? One of the Official sponsors for ManUNITED. :) ]

Anyway, besides that, i pretty much got nothing to shout about. Hmm. Days like this make me wish i had more entertainment in my life, but i guess i do have my good days, and my dull days. lolz. Lets see, i've been studying here in KL for almost a year now and what have i learnt'? ALOT.. i learnt the true meaning of being independent, being stressed out to the max, having to deal with crazy situations, well it's a wild wild world people, u gotta grab what u want before the opportunity fades..

Life couldn't get much better till you meet a bunch of interesting people who can decorate ur presence with laughters and comfort. That's when you realize that FRIENDS are the sibblings God forgot to give us. I'm a Christian, Roman Catholic to be exact, and i believe that God has a plan for each and every single one of us, but if God has a plan for all of us, then he surely knows how everything's gonna turn out right? Isn't it all written in the propechy you may ask me? And if God knows how our life's gonna turn out to be, then why is he making us choose what is wrong and what is right in life? Well the answer is simple people.. God is giving us a chance to choose between the good and bad things in life, why? well lets just put it into a situation, God wants everyone to love him, but if he's God and powerful, why dont he just make us love him? Well because FORCED LOVE is not love at all. Indeed for us to Love Him, He must give us the choice to not love him. Clear? well it make sense, to me atleast..

If we were to talk about religions, we'd surely meet alot of resistance, because none of us are adequate enough to express the truth for God is a mystery, and if everyone knew the mysteries that lies within Him, Then He's not God at all, no? God is Great, God is Love, I'm thankful that i even managed to survive for over 18years now, i have learnt alot in life, but not enough, every single day is still a new day for learning and a process for me to nourish my brain and soul wisdom. So with that, i'm greatful to even still be here. You should too :]

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Everytime i CLose My Eyes :D

OMG! i've been listening to Babyface's "EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES" over 35 times now. :D yes, and i dunno y, but i just love this song. and i've been checking out YouTube for Acoustic Cover versions of this song too.. and i found this group of guys, consisting of 3 ppl [AJ, Albert and Mark] who made an awesomeeeee cover of this song... So check out the link below. :p

(Everytime I Close My Eyes, I Thank The Lord that I Got You)

Girl it's been a long, long time comin', yes it has
But I, I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you


Every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself cuz I don't believe it's true
That someone like you loves me too

Girl I think that you're truly somethin', yes you are
And you're, you're every bit of a dream come true, yes you are
With you baby, it never rains
And it's no wonder
The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just blessing that I have found somebody like you
Ooh Oh

To think of all the nights I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughta know how much you mean to me
It's only right, it's only right
(In my life) that you be in my life right here with me
Oh baby, baby, yeah

(-Kenny G. sax solo-)

I'll tell you girl that...

(Chorus to fade)

Well anyway, I LOVE THIS SONG!! hahahaha. here's the link to the YouTube Video