Saturday, February 21, 2009

I’m a million different people from one day to the next.

Good Morning Malaysia. Good Morning SEGi University College. Good Morning Family. Good Morning Friends of mine. Good Morning readers out there.

Is it really morning? No it's not. It's actually 6.28pm in the evening. Well to me, it is my MORNING. I just woke up from an evening nap.

Here i am lying on my bed, been doing that for the last one hour. Weather's as perfect as ever, the room's even darker as ever, well not really that dark though. The least bit ray of sun shining through the blue curtains in my room is kinda giving my room this blue-ish oceanic effect to the room.

Look at urself in the mirror, what do u see? do u see urself? R u sure? Or is it just an image called REFLECTION? Wow, how deep can i get? VERY. trust me.

Today is like walking into a dream, a nightmare. People around me starring at me wif bloodshoot eyes, i keep telling myself, this can't be right.. Just then, i get zapped back into reality. Here i am in this pathetic cold world.. I don't belong here. Wait, WHERE IS HERE? i dunno. SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE IS "HERE"!!. Here's a place inside my head.. my FEAR has created it's own area code. and now i'm lost here without a compass to guide me out. Damn.. I feel all alone. and i need to get the hell out of here before i go insane. But wait, why am i even here? Maybe i've got a mission to complete. before i escape, i have to accomplish a certain objective.. But what can i do?? Well, maybe i'm here to test out the different characters in life that i can be and then choose one which i can adapt to for the rest of my life.

I don't belong here. I don't... But i've got to find myself.. So here i am, being A MILLION DIFFERENT PEOPLE FROM ONE DAY TO THE NEXT. Guess what, that made me think.. Now i know why HYPOCRITES even exist. It's coz they've never really escaped this place i'm in. FEAR. they keep potraying different kinds of characters without having to ever settle with just one... I don't blame them sometimes, but plz, before time runs out, be true to who u are.

A mirror may have two faces, but if u glance at the first image u see looking back at u in the mirror, that's who u really are. Not the other images that come about after u've imagined the image u see in the mirror wif other additional details on them simply through ur imagination.

I don't belong here. Still i keep saying that. Then boom~! I got back into reality. Somewhere people call THE REAL WORLD. What an extraordinary experience i've went through..

Now i'm standing here in a long pathway with nothing but empty picture frames hanging on the bare walls surrounding me all the way to the end where there lies a door that needs to be opened with a key... Now i know my objective.. I've got to paint my own photos and insert them in these empty picture frames till i reach the door one day where my destiny lies behind the secured locked door.. That's when i can escape this place, when the time is right. For now, i've got to go with what's written in the stars for me..

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