TanGled up iN u.

How does a simple hello turn to goodbye?
When am i able to spread my wings and fly?


Things i wish i knew,
Instead of a smile, the situation's turning blue.
Another day goes by, another word not spoken,
Whenever i say goodbye, my feelings for u sharpen,

A new day comes, and still nothing's changed,
Mixed feelings consume me, damn it feels like i'm stucked n framed.
Words dont come easy and neither do rhymes,
Hand me my guitar now, bet i can't write no lines.

Dont stop, keep moving, keep telling you that,
All the thing's i've said, i guess i've made u mad,
I'd say I'm sorry, but timbaland said it's too late to apologize,
I know everyone's different, it takes one more than to just analize

I'm scared of turning back, I'm scared of knowing the truth,
My hapiness lately, all the smiles and laughs, YEA ur the leading root,
You're dazzling in every way, just fun and strong,
Your life, your dreams, they're like a beautiful sonG..

GirL I'm only human, i'm full of many faults, i'm guaranteed to fall short, what a privilage it is to even know ur name.. Life's a risk, Standin here, i guess i'm taking a shot..

Through Nicky's Eyes.

Have you ever wanted to do something or tell someone something through a picture or even PICTURES for that matter? Well I have…,

[A Picture Worth a Thousand Words]

(I wish i could teach the world to sing, listen to their voices and have them jumpin from the joy i bring)

(Everyone's waiting for a fairy; Everyone wishes their life was like a scene in a fairytale, just waiting for their HAPPY EVER AFTER ENDING.. With a bit of faith and patience, it might just come)

(It's a wonder sometimes how two people can turn from being strangers to friends, and back to total strangers all over again.. Come on people, shit happens.. Even if you've had a breakup with your partner, stay friends.. Don't think of the bad memories you guys shared, there's still the good times you've had, no?)

(I wish i could teach a soul to fly, take the pain out of their hands and help them hold em' high)


(I wish i can bring back the people that died. When will all the suffering stop? When the whole of mankind is totally wiped off? Innocent lives are being taken every single day)

(When right goes wrong, just say a little prayer. Instead of thinking about whose going to die today, The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain't gotta cry today. So we gotta pray, all we got is faith)




(Music lifts the spirit of the world with the words in some songs. I wish some long gone influential rappers could still scream their lungs out, and bullets could reverse so that Tupac and Biggie would Breathe again)

(Wish we could keep achieving wonders, see the visions of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder)

(I wish that we only saw good news everytime we watched CNN, and wish that we can never get the blues)

(I wish that we could hold hands, listen instead of dissin lessons from a grown man)


(I wish everybody would just stop and freeze, and ask why we are fulfilling these downfalls and these prophesies)

(Only the Heavenly Father can ease the hurt and pain, just let it go and keep praying on your knees in church)

Just trying to spread my thoughts and words through the eyes and wisdom of a believer.

Thoughts of a Dreamer.

[Although this photo is nothing more than a simple tree frozen from the cold weather, with a light behind it, it feels like so much more]

This photo is dedicated to anyone and everyone that is need of a little encouragement and hope. Things these days are getting pretty rough in the world, failing economy, increased unemployment, continued war... If this small tree can blossom after a chill like this, we all can make it through the hard time. When it all seems to be too much, take a deep breath, say a prayer, and remember to hold on to your hopes, dreams and most importantly, your faith....

I am a dreamer, a fighter, a lover, everything from A-Z.. But one thing's for sure, i'm not perfect. When it comes to being lucky, i may even be cursed.

But either way, i'm trying people.. Trying my very best to survive this ferocious world. Throughout my whole 18 years of living, i have always had a dream, as cheesy and cliche' as it may seem, my dream is TO WORK IT OUT... To make something out of myelf, but how can i do so with this ever changing world filled with lies and hypocrisy?? Someone please come and save me, HELP ME OUT!!

Before i know it, i'm left in this situation, this scene where i'm falling far-far off from the ledge, BAM!~ bEFore i know it, Gravity gets me back on the right track in life. Why? Maybe that's HOPE telling me to keep on trying.. Who exactly is "hope"? My family? My friends? The ones i love? No.. Hope's this burning fire in me.. The burning fire for passion and desire.. Telling me that it won't stop burning till my flames spread all over and that's a metaphor for me to achieve the things i desire most in life..

My dream is to be SoMeBoDY, i am somebody now, but i'm only 25% through my journey in becoming the real person i want to be. As crazy as i may seem, i don't just want my name up in lights, nor fame to take over my life overnight, but i just want to be COMFORTABLE in life. Yes i do go out of my mind sometimes thinking about extraordinary stuff, but i'm still RIGHT IN THE HEAD people, i can still think straight, and A COMFORTABLE LIFE is what i WANT in LIFE.

So here's a goodbye statement to all the obstacles out there, i couldn't agree more on how ADIDAS said that "IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING". It sure is.. I'm sorry, but it's time i took a stand, a point where i wave this 5 fingers i have on both my left and right hands to all the doubts and hopelessness that surrounds my hopes and dreams, you are no longer welcome in my presence. Dramatic much? U tell me.. Yes we learn from mistakes, but if we leave no room for mistakes, TRIUMPH can flame up faster..

So cheers to all the bad times and the past, for, The Future Belongs To Those Who Believe In The Beauty Of Their Dreams.

My WishList.

Hohoho, i know it's not christmas, but it's never too early to wanna write Santa a WishList now is it? :p

Well Here it is:

1) An awesome future
2) To own my own CLUB one day
3) To drive a Fairlady around KK City [Fairlady the car ahhhh, NOT A FAIR LADYYY]. ahahaha
4) A hummer to impress my fellow Malaysians
5) To have A dog named BLUE.. ahahahaha
6) To sing "MY BOO" to my hot sexy, nerdy, irritating, long haired future gf.. AHAHAHA.
7) To SUPERMAN That HOE.. "Youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!". AHAHAHAHA
8) To have my own crash pad for maximum privacy.. :p
9) To own something big and popular [Dont cross the yellow line u perverted ppl.. ahaha]
10) To win a hundred million bucks for maximum happiness..
11) To travel around the world
12) To own a mansion filled with entertainment apparatus. AHAHAHAHAA... uiseh, nice words
13) A Jet and a Boeing 747 pimped out by WEST COAST Customs to perfection
14) A bestfriend called Armstrong.. [RANDOM yo. ahahaha]
15) To bring sexy back. :p
16) Pop Bottles all night
17) Eat ice at the North Pole
18) To Shuffle on the Great Wall of China
19) To own new phones every single time a nice one comes out.
20) Wish that MY WHOLE FAMILY would always be happy for LIFE. :]

:] Oh santa, plz make my dreams come true.. AHAHAHAHA

Confessions of a Teenage Boy.

Tick# Tick# Tick# The Clock keeps ticking. One glance at the calender, time flies in a very fast pace.. It only takes us a second to realize our life's going forward at the speed of light. Wow, it's my final year of being a teen. Didn't realize it till Donella mentioned it. Damn. Now i feel old. Yesterday led me to thinking alot, and theres just so much that's been goin through ma mind. Who am i? Am i really acting as myself? I dunno anymore, i'm starting to doubt my myself. Haihz.

(It's simple but I can't explain it. Is it really another perfect day?)

Well i'm sick of having to defend myself.. Here's a confession from me, I AM WHO I AM.. and i'm proud of it. :] I dont care what people say, i do what i want, when i want, and BECAUSE I WANT TO. haha. Well here's my confessions:

-I'm Nico Jericho Januz Kilroy Augustin, i'm serious. :]
-I play the guitar although every chord and melody i play seems to summon the rain to fall, i
dont care, it makes me happy.
-I like to philosophize famous quotes and act as if i'm making sense infront of people, although it
makes me look stupid sometimes, i dont mind :]
-I rhyme and come up with weird poems alot because i think its cool
-I talk to people i like and ignore people who are annoying. haha
-I like to take evening naps because it keeps me from being cranky at night. :p
-I dont eat rice at night, well its a new found "hobby" of mine. ahahaahhaa.
-I'm mix genre, so i appreciate different genres of music, emo, rap, soul, pop, u name it.
-I dont like Hello Kitty, that cat's just creepy
-I think Spongebob rocks and Patrick don't :p but i'll give props to Patrick anyway, he's a good
friend.
-If i were to turn to Nickelodeon and Rugrats just happen to be on, i'd watch it, i'm not even
lying. :D i love the rugrats, that show just have this nostalgic feeling to it.
-I like my chicken, fried, and crispy. :]
-My family's the one team i'll always audition for. :]
-If i had a hundred million bucks, My life would be set for life.
-I went to form six for 3 weeks to buy time before i entered college. haha iN short, 2 have fun.
-Life's ok, abit stressful, but OK.
-I like to Sing even if i cant.. :p
-I still like Chris Brown's "With You" and all his other songs though he beat the sh*t out of
Rihanna. ahahaha
-Sometimes i pretend i'm in my own world where i can impress people with my dancing, pathetic
huh..
-I miss Home
-I Can't wait for semester breaks, coz that's when i'll fly back home.
-I believe BAHAMEN let the dogs out

and Last But Not LEAST, my ambition in life is to EXPERIENCE A MIRACLE. :]

Better things are coming my way.

Time : 5.30am

Am i crazy to be awake at this hour? :] not really, lately better things are coming my way. I dunno where i went right, but i'm loving every bit of it. :]

(Take a good look around)


(Better things are coming my way each & every single day)

Yes sometimes life stresses can bring u down, but u gotta get up and take a better look around. :] Just gotta keep on moving kinda like that song KEEP ON MOVIN' by 5ive. haha. "Keep Moving, dont stop rocking"..

When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying (ahh ahh ahh)
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
Keep on movin' don't stop rockin' (ahh ahh ahh)

Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a good look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
Keep on moving anyway

So whats new? U really wanna know? Ok here goes, *Slaps a whole week experience in one post* :p

FRIDAY, got to know an exciting gal who goes by the name of Carmelia. Its a wonder how i could have had her msn email and not once chatted wif her. lolz. About this gal? i've got alot more of "getting to know her" sessions b4 i can really tell u about u, as a heads-up, she's a pretty cool gal 2 chat wif. :]

SATURDAY, Najib, Mohammad, Nizam and myself went to Bukit Bintang to meet Mohammad Ali's Dad whose transittin here from Yahmen. Treated us to Arabic food. OMG, the dude kept ordering food for us as if we havent eaten in days. *Dramatic face* haha! But it was aight, we survived the whole TOO MUCH FOOD madness wif bloated tummies.. ahaha.. met Roy after that... Nizam and I went for a haircut..went back around 11pm, the taxi driver took us round in circles, me and the guys kinda made him feel guilty [we pretended we kept getting msgs and calls saying that someone's waiting for us].. dirty trick guys. ahahaha

SUNDAY, The day i RESTED! ahaha.

MONDAY, the day I STUDIED!.. Public Speaking finals the next day guys..

TUESDAY, had the Public Speaking finals..Then at night, studied to the max at the Lobby wif Roy for Tuesday's Algebra paper.. we actually stayed there till 7.30am.. I know right. WOW? ahahaha

WEDNESDAY, Yes, the day of the exam.. Everyone looked stressed out, well its Algebra, anything wif numb3rs is a burden... ASS' more like it. haha. jk. :p AFTER THE EXAMS, we drove allll the way to TELOK GONG to have seafood [The trip took about an hour's drive].. Man was the food great. AWESOME... After that, we drove all the way to Ming's house.. had soft drinks there.. Then the guys decided to hit the Cyber Cafe while the girls went and watch a movie. :] WE SPENT 5 HOURS at the CYBER cafe!! wth.. we didnt even feel it.. Oh yea, kinda met Chee Fui Vun there by accident.. coincidence huh, then i met up wif Lee Wee Chi too!! well cant blame it all on fate, KDU's hostel just seemed to be around the corner. lolz... Then after that, went for supper at Some Mamak stall around the zoo area which took us another 45 minutes drive.. Alot of driving huh, i know right. :] Too detailed.. So got back to the college around 5am. ahahaha. Now that's late. :]

THURSDAY, went to One Utama with Najib to get his ipod. Annoyed him by entering Toys "R" Us and roamed that place for almost 20minutes just lookin at toys. :p i used to love this place when i was younger, its just so, MAGICAL!! seriously. :D Then at night, had a very interesting conversation with Carmelia.. She's a very tough debater. :] Weird in a good way.. So yea, i guess that sum's up my week.

Ladies and gentlemen, GO TO SLEEP! haha. ok night. :] I'm gonna crash in bed now. ps: Shit happens, but life goes on.. So whenever ur feeling great, go all out, u might not experence it again anytime soon. hahaha. jk. :p

Mad.

(Whose that person looking back at me in the mirror?)

Ne Yo-MAD.. Can't seem to get this song out of my head. Why? I dunno. Maybe its just so freakin awesome. Then again, maybe it just has some sorta effect on me. Lemme tell u about my day, it was MESSED UP. really2 messed up. Lately i've been having so much on my mind.. So much to think about.. It's like there's this whole burden over my shoulder.. Can't wait for my 2 weeks break in May.. Sighs, I guess i'll just have to hang in here, coz every activity in life now just seemz to exist to stress me out. Whatever it is, i'm still breathing aren't i.